I was on vacation at the San Diego Zoo Safari Park when I learned about the demise of Grantland via Twitter.
My first reaction was shock. My second reaction was, well, this:
This was my first thought. Good people got the axe today. Bayless and SAS will be on air Mon. w/o fail. https://t.co/AoNt9aZFbK
— Dave Singleton (@dfsingleton) October 30, 2015
But as I continued on throughout the day, and as some of the eulogies and takedowns have rolled in, I've become somewhat introspective (as I am wont to do).
The main takeaway I've gathered from the demise of Grantland is this:
I don't necessarily think I want to work full-time in sports media anymore.
Every now and then, I've had the itch and I've managed to scratch it in some ways. I do part-time work here on my own site (where I have the pleasure of being able to write whenever I please and whatever I please) and on The Student Section. I've written at Crystal Ball Run, Southern Pigskin, Rock M Nation and at Bleacher Report in the days when that was considered to be a punchline instead of an opportunity. I started on a site way back in the day called E-Sports Media Group.
I dabbled in a couple of podcasts on here, and did semi-regular spots on ESPN Radio in Coastal Georgia. I have been grateful for all of those opportunities.
And yes, during a couple of bouts of (extended) unemployment from my vocation, I probably could have better seized opportunities to turn this sports media avocation into a new career.
The time for that has come and gone, I believe. Some of it because of my age and the fact that I feel it is too late to really break into the game.
Some of it is because of a lack of confidence.
Some of it is plain old frustration with the state of things.